The Regret Doesn’t Go Away

People talk about healing like it wipes the slate clean.
Like once you do the work, the past settles itself
and you walk forward untouched.

That hasn’t been my experience.

I’ve done the work.
I’ve made the amends.
I’ve looked people in the eye and owned what I did.
I’ve rebuilt my life from the inside out.

And I’m still living with the memories of who I was
and what it cost the people who loved me.

The regret didn’t disappear.
It just stopped being the thing that controlled me.

I used to drown it.
Now I face it.
Some days with grace.
Some days with a lump in my throat.

Healing didn’t give me a life without regret.
It gave me the ability to carry it without becoming it.

I can’t undo who I was.
But I don’t have to be her anymore.

Reflection:
What regret are you still carrying, and who do you become when you let it speak for you?

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